Friday, May 03, 2013

Spring Awakening

Spring is a time for renewal.  I love the fresh start that the season promises with the days growing longer and the afternoons warmer, the trees in bloom and the sounds of kids playing outside.  I've been busy spring cleaning my home and my mind over the last week so this year spring is also a time of reflection.  I've been thinking a lot about my past, the changes I've made in my life and what I what I hope to achieve in the future.  The truth is that I'm not sure what that is.  I'm at a bit of a crossroad right now and I'm not sure which path to take with my career.  I know it happens to everyone and it's not the first or the last time it will happen to me.  The decision to switch careers for a new one nearly six (!) years ago was one of the most difficult choices I've ever had to make.  Now I'm wondering where it's all going. 

With the birth of my second child on the very near horizon I'm thinking about the birth of a new me and new opportunities.  There is so much change happening around me, my baby daughter isn't really a baby anymore, in fact she's going to be a big sister soon, and my *new* career isn't really that new.  My focus over the last few years has been my family and seeing them flourish and grow.  Now we're adding a little boy to the mix and I'm filled with anticipation, love, fear (yes), and excitement.  Still, with all my attention on my little family I feel like somehow I've let my own needs fall to the wayside.  Not because they don't encourage me but because sometimes I'm guilty of not encouraging myself even when others are trying to lift me up.  I'm sure it's normal (whatever that means) but now I'm thinking ahead to the next few years and hoping that I can carve out some space for myself.  I think that when we do that, regardless of whether we have a partner and kids or not, we become better in all other areas of life.  I don't want to rush time but I'm planning for what's to come.  For me that means creating new work, painting (I've been dying to start painting again), writing and just working on being better - a better wife, mom, friend, photographer.  Resolutions aren't just for the new year - I think it's important to revisit these thoughts every few months and with all the changes going on, spring is the perfect time.  Do you go through this cycle every spring? 

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