Thursday, January 26, 2012

This is happening

Copyright Monica L. Shulman

My show is opening tonight and I am equal parts completely excited and totally nervous.  These are the usual competing feelings that I have whenever I have something "big" on the horizon and so I've learned to just acknowledge them and move on.

I've always been very much of a "Next!" kind of person -- always looking to the next thing, what is on the "list" that I have to check off, did I accomplish what I set out to do and if I did, let's get to what follows.  However, lately I'm really working hard at trying not to move so fast.  I want to be in the moment that is happening right here and now and also really take the time to look back and remember the ones that have already passed.  This has to do not just with my little family and the fact that this week my baby, who is now a full-fledged toddler, had her 19-month birthday, but professionally too.

When I sat down to write this post the focus was on my work and how much has happened in the four-plus years since I decided to kick the corporate bucket and dropout of my life as a corporate lawyer to follow my dream.  At the time I wasn't really sure what my dream was and I can honestly say with certainty that while the concept is much clearer today it is constantly evolving as I add more and more to my list of things that I want to accomplish.  Either way I am extremely cognizant of what is happening now and what has happened so far.  Instead of feeling like I want to "check" something off and move quickly to the next item, I'm allowing myself to linger in the moment, enjoy and be aware of Time.  Yes, Time with a capital T- it goes by too quickly and I never seem to have enough of it.

What about you?  Do you make that Time for yourself?  How important is it for you?

So tonight I'm going to have so much fun.  If you're around I hope you'll join me for some wine and photography...an awesome combination...I speak from experience!

Here are some photos that you will not see at the exhibit tonight if you decide to come because they are out-takes of one photo that IS in the exhibit.

The other day, in an effort to get my creative juices flowing, I was searching my own archives for some inspiration and I found these before-now unprocessed images.  There they were in a folder titled "Fifth Ave. Rush and Shadows" and that's exactly what they are.  On the afternoon that I took them I was on assignment doing some freelance work and I was in such a rush I couldn't move quickly enough.  I was about to put my camera away when I looked up and saw all these people coming toward me.  In a second I went from being completely focused to getting home and getting to work to staying out and working some more...but this time for myself.  Isn't that why I left my job as a lawyer to begin with?  So I stayed outside, skipped the subway and walked against the tide and mad rush of people.  These were the results.  I'm feeling proud because the photo* that I decided to feature in the show tonight has won all sorts of awards and it's been in a few shows online and on a few actual physical walls.  I have even sold a couple prints to collectors.  It's all very exciting and particularly motivating for me considering that all of these photos almost didn't happen if I hadn't had the good sense to just let myself BE in the moment and take the pictures that I always wanted to take.

I think I'm having an epiphany.  Yep, #thisishappening.

Copyright Monica L. Shulman

Copyright Monica L. Shulman

shadows of ourselves.
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Copyright Monica L. Shulman

Copyright Monica L. Shulman



Copyright Monica L. Shulman

Copyright Monica L. Shulman


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7 comments:

Gilsner said...

So exciting! Enjoy every moment, wish I were there... I'll have a glass of vino in your honor. Maybe some cheese too ;)

StarBox said...

beautifull shadows... it's funny what else can you see when you're not looking into people's faces. they're present, but not really..like your own little world. I really like your pictures :)

ana {bluebirdkisses} said...

Have an amazing time tonight! I'm so excited for you. Your work is beautiful and you should enjoy ever minute of it. And in turn I will try and do the same thing. I often neglect to make time for myself, but I think its time I got on with it.

Anonymous said...

You're such an inspiration! I hope that one day I can also(discover and) follow my dream. I'm excited to get out tonight and see your work, yay!

Anonymous said...

Monica~

You clearly have talent...it shows in the images you share with your audience. I just feel that we see similar pics posted over and over and over again on your site. It would be nice to see some more variety. These shadow pictures, though beautiful, have made the rounds several times. You always leave me wanting more! I just wish there was a little more variety in what you show.

Chessa! said...

Thank you so much everyone! It was a really great turn out last night and I fel very grateful for all of the support from my family, friends and new people who I've never met. I had a lot of fun!

Anonymous, first of all, thanks for stopping by so often. If you know what I post and how often it must be bc you visit frequently. I really appreciate the visits and your feedback. I do have an enormous archive as I'm sure you can imagine and when I share photos in a post, whether it's been shared already or not, the images are always relevant to the post. In this case, I wrote that only one of the images had been previously shared and that's the one that is currently in my show in Tribeca. I'm really proud of the photo (obviously) and feel humbled that it has gotten so much attention. Also, I really like the photo so why not share something that I like? After all, the blog is a reflection of who I am. The other images in this post were buried deep in my hard drive archives and were not even processed until this week (in fact, I had completely forgotten about them and I stated that they were clearly out takes)- they're relevant to the story that I shared along with the photos and so that's why I decided to share them.

What else can I say about repeatedly sharing photos? Like I said, I try do it only when it's relevant to a post (like if I won an award or something or if it's been published with a link if there is one, etc.).

Either way, I'm really touched that you feel so strongly about it bc it just inspires me to go out and do more if not for myself than bc other people seem to enjoy it too. So, thanks. and btw, next time, don't comment as Anonymous...it is VERY difficult to offend me and I don't take myself too seriously (in most situations). I welcome an open dialogue always...even when I'm being criticized. Plus, in my past life I was a lawyer so I still have a good argument or two in me.

Namine said...

I wish I could be there!!! Hope you have fun!! Beautiful photo's!!