Thursday, January 26, 2012
This is happening
My show is opening tonight and I am equal parts completely excited and totally nervous. These are the usual competing feelings that I have whenever I have something "big" on the horizon and so I've learned to just acknowledge them and move on.
I've always been very much of a "Next!" kind of person -- always looking to the next thing, what is on the "list" that I have to check off, did I accomplish what I set out to do and if I did, let's get to what follows. However, lately I'm really working hard at trying not to move so fast. I want to be in the moment that is happening right here and now and also really take the time to look back and remember the ones that have already passed. This has to do not just with my little family and the fact that this week my baby, who is now a full-fledged toddler, had her 19-month birthday, but professionally too.
When I sat down to write this post the focus was on my work and how much has happened in the four-plus years since I decided to kick the corporate bucket and dropout of my life as a corporate lawyer to follow my dream. At the time I wasn't really sure what my dream was and I can honestly say with certainty that while the concept is much clearer today it is constantly evolving as I add more and more to my list of things that I want to accomplish. Either way I am extremely cognizant of what is happening now and what has happened so far. Instead of feeling like I want to "check" something off and move quickly to the next item, I'm allowing myself to linger in the moment, enjoy and be aware of Time. Yes, Time with a capital T- it goes by too quickly and I never seem to have enough of it.
What about you? Do you make that Time for yourself? How important is it for you?
So tonight I'm going to have so much fun. If you're around I hope you'll join me for some wine and photography...an awesome combination...I speak from experience!
Here are some photos that you will not see at the exhibit tonight if you decide to come because they are out-takes of one photo that IS in the exhibit.
The other day, in an effort to get my creative juices flowing, I was searching my own archives for some inspiration and I found these before-now unprocessed images. There they were in a folder titled "Fifth Ave. Rush and Shadows" and that's exactly what they are. On the afternoon that I took them I was on assignment doing some freelance work and I was in such a rush I couldn't move quickly enough. I was about to put my camera away when I looked up and saw all these people coming toward me. In a second I went from being completely focused to getting home and getting to work to staying out and working some more...but this time for myself. Isn't that why I left my job as a lawyer to begin with? So I stayed outside, skipped the subway and walked against the tide and mad rush of people. These were the results. I'm feeling proud because the photo* that I decided to feature in the show tonight has won all sorts of awards and it's been in a few shows online and on a few actual physical walls. I have even sold a couple prints to collectors. It's all very exciting and particularly motivating for me considering that all of these photos almost didn't happen if I hadn't had the good sense to just let myself BE in the moment and take the pictures that I always wanted to take.
I think I'm having an epiphany. Yep, #thisishappening.