Thursday, July 03, 2008

Maybe You'll Get What You Wanted

When I arrive in Argentina on Sunday, July 6th it will be the one year anniversary of the last day of my job as a corporate finance attorney. I'm going there to participate in an art fair and at this time last year I never would have imagined, I could not have imagined, that I would be where I am right now.

My decision to move on and try something new did not happen overnight. It was really tough. I knew there was something else out there for me and I knew that if I didn't try it right then and there I might never try it.

I'm still not sure where all this is going but I like not knowing. As I said, when I arrive in Argentina on Sunday, July 6th it will be the one year anniversary of the last day in my old life. This year so far has been challenging. I've been learning a new profession - two actually since I still keep another day job while trying to be a photographer - and I have been learning a lot about myself.

Looking through my archive of work I found this photograph that I took in Prague almost three years ago on a wonderful trip that I took with my mother and sister. By the time that we reached Prague we had already been traveling for nearly 10 days and we were really tired. We sat in a pew in this beautiful old church that had survived hundreds of years, wars, hate, a Velvet Revolution...I noticed the stained glass, the statues, the tiled floors, the worn wood of the altar and all the other magnificent details of the place. But, the one thing that really captured my attention was the vast amount of candles that were lit all over the place. People light candles in a church for their own reasons - to pray for a loved one, to pray for the deceased, to pray for the unborn, to ask for faith, for love, for hope, for their dreams. I connected so much to those candles. I connected, and still do, to all of these things that they stood for. I took this photo to remember this afternoon. When I looked at this photograph then I was nostalgic for that day, with my mom and my sister and all the thoughts that were swimming through my head. When I look at it now I get the goosebumps.

White Shadows

As I said in my last post, sometimes when I take a photograph I instantly connect it to a song that I've heard. This image brought to mind the lyrics of "White Shadows" by Coldplay.

When I was a young boy I tried to listen
And I wanna feel like that
Little white shadows
blink and miss them
Part of a system, I am

If you ever feel like something's missing
Things you'll never understand
Little white shadows
Sparkle and glisten
Part of a system again

All this noise, I'm waking up
All this space, I'm taking up
All this sound is breaking up
Oh...

Maybe you'll get what you wanted
maybe you'll stumbled upon it
Everything you ever wanted
In a permanent state

Maybe you'll know when you see it
Maybe if you say it, you'll mean it
And when you find it you'll keep it
In a permanent state, a permanent state

When I was a young boy I tried to listen
Don't you wanna feel like that?

You're part of the human race
All of the stars and the outer space
Part of the system again

All this noise, I'm waking up
All this space I'm taking up
I cannot hear, you're breaking up
Oh...

Maybe you'll get what you wanted
Maybe you'll stumble upon it
Everything you ever wanted
In a permanent state

Maybe you'll know when you see it
Maybe if you say it, you'll mean it
And when you find it you'll keep it
In a permanent state, a permanent state

Swim out on a sea of faces
Tide of the human races
Oh, an answer now is what I need...

See it in a new sun rising
See it break on your horizon
Oh, come on love, stay with me...